I can count the few great relationships I have and sometimes I wonder if that’s good or bad. Whether good or bad I believe at some point we must be completely truthful to ourselves. This is my truth. Whenever I’m for you I give 150%. If you need and I have, your good. This is also why I limit the amount of “friends”, I allow in my life. I don’t want to spread myself too thin. After all I’m married to my very best friend and that’s my #1 priority when it comes to relationships. The problem I notice when I have really close girlfriends is that they become jealous of other relationships and I don’t know how to rationalize all that emotion and so I back out. One of my longest relationship with my ex-best friend, ended because I felt that we not only grew apart, but she no longer was the person I knew and I wasn’t the friend she needed at the time. She wanted someone to tell her the lifestyle she lived was ok. That it was excusable and I can’t lie or pretend to the ones I love and so it began to quickly fizzle. She wasn’t capable of balancing her relationship with me while dating. She would only draw close to me when she was heartbroken and after awhile that just didn’t work for me. I love her dearly and she’ll always have a place in my heart, but I felt like I needed to let her go for her to really find herself. Needless to say if she ever calls, I’ll be right here. Another amazing friend of mine, which was kinda awkward when our friendship ended. For her I knew she loved me because she was there for tremendously when my now husband and I were dating and separated. She was my rock. However when we got back together her relationship with her boyfriend started to feel like a competition with what I was trying to build with mine. It became obvious that they were competing instead of us learning from each other. This definitely led me to start having the natural relationships I was quickly forming. All of which included folks at least 10yrs older than I am. Which are so normal and natural that age doesn’t play a role or becomes an issue. I do know having a relationship with Christ plays an important role in the key relationships I now have. With Christ in them theirs no limit. Because of their relationship with him, it allows me to grow even more and realize my bad qualities as a friend. These are obviously my sides of the story and I’m well aware that theirs might be different . I forgave. Now that I’m writing this I don’t think I’ve ever expressed these feelings completely to them and maybe that needs to be apart of my healing process to grow more has a better person. This letter all started because of a recent fall out with my sister, who because I’ve always been truthful and extremely vocal in voicing my feelings. Didn’t realize how much I was hurting her, even if I didn’t like the decisions she was making. Even if I felt she changed completely and wasn’t capable of balancing our friendship. I hurt her because sometimes, this I’m learning, as a friend sometimes you just need to listen, be a shoulder and more importantly sometimes you have to step AWAY. Give that person room to adjust. We aren’t going to have all the answers as friends. Even if I don’t understand her decision and I might never. But I need to step away, let go and allow the same God we both serve to work and repair. To restore. Now the hardest revelation is this. Restoring relationships may mean that they will never be the SAME! They might get better or even fade. But we aren’t God and should never judge, just love like Christ did. More importantly we need to PRAY. Pray for each other and the things you don’t like. Not to work in your favor, but that God will do what’s best. So has I embark on a journey to restore and let go, or continue to build these relationships. I will now focus on the most important one…my marriage and Praise God for his complete coverage of it.
Letting go and allowing Christ in every area of my life, ultimately all our relationships should bring him glory!😊😊😊😊😊👂👂👂👍👍👍👍✌✌✌✌☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝💜💜💜💜💜
Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is .- James 5:16
This weekend I’ve been celebrating my bday in Miami and I had a blast. Private helicopter tour, swimming with dolphins, holding baby gators and eating great vegetarian food. All things I had a fear of doing, yet through Christ my biggest lesson this year is actually believing that I can do absolutely all things through Christ who gives me strength and so that exactly how I’ve overcome all these fears I had. Plus Christ doesn’t embed in us a spirit of fear, but that of a sound mind. Ended last night at Joel Osteen Night of Hope and left feeling so inspired. I worship all the way home and began my 26th bday in worship and more closer to him than ever. I truly am incredibly grateful for God taking my story and making it bring glory to his name. For taking my shame and making it victorious. My mere birth was a miracle. I’ve learnt to forgive those who’ve hurt me along the way and forgive myself for hurting others. I’ve let go of the past and I’m holding on tight to the future. The joy of the Lord is my strength. Lord you’ve held my hands, carried me when I became too weak and made me your child from day one. I dedicate my entire life to you and it’s completely change me. I’m a different woman now because of your grace. You’ve took the worst of me and gave the best to me and with all I am, I’ll live to worship you. I praise you in advance for an abundant life to serve and honor you. Thanks for another incredible year of service to you. Thanks for blessing me with an incredible husband whose taken up his cross and his role has a husband and whose exceeded my expectations of what marriage would be when lived through you. All glory be to God.
Seems to be so much negative views, ideas and perspectives on what marriage is and how it should be. I love being married and I’m so happy that not only did God create this sacred covenant where he’s the head of, but he allow me to see other beautiful couples who have had successfully LOVE Only because they placed him first. I’m so grateful that God gave me a piece of his love here on earth. I love learning new ways to love my man each day.😍😍😍😍😘😘😚😚🙊💓💓💓💕💕💕💗💗💗💗💝💝💝💜💜💜💛💛💛💚💚💙💙💙💙💙💙💙👰👰👰👰👫👫👫💃💃💃
This made my heart smile…though this cat’s surrounding seems evidently chaotic and filthy…he sleeps peaceful with grace among the ruins of life…Don’t let your situation define who you are or better yet how you behave. God is always in control. God is truly good.
If God is for us and we are for him, then best believe there will be alot of people against us. It comes with the territory. Are you really ready to stand up for the King of all Kings? Are you ready to lay down your life? The blessings are plenty, but the trials come equally. Being a believer doesn’t mean your life becomes peaches and cream. It means you’ve given up self to take up the cross and follow Christ. Are you baring your cross without complaining, without doubt….God will never leave you nor will he forsake you. Your a child of the King and YOU can do ANYTHING! Be blessed.
Give me that joy that I can’t explain, add extra peace that will ease my pain. Oh that love that will never change. Give me the power to walk away when another God wants to take your place. If we humble ourselves people and fall on our face, ask God anything that’s not right in me take it away. I choose you today. I need you today. I can’t get away, see there’s no escape. Look what you’ve done to me, I’m not the same old me. You took away everything and now your my everything JESUS! Give me that God who breathes life into the nostrils of man. The God who orchestrates the future, at the same time he knows who you are. Jesus I want more of you, but I know that takes less of me. I’m ready. Give me that joy that I can’t explain…….
Today was the last day of my cleanse. Praise God! It went O.k to say the least. My body didn’t really take to the cleanse and I felt weak most of the time with a slight headache. Even with me taking every step precisely as recommended. Didn’t work for me, yet the best part of this cleanse was for me the five day fast from solid food intake. That took a lot of discipline and self control. But I made it with the help of God. This was more of a spiritual fast and I kept grounded in the word more than ever. Through it all God was good, is good and all glory be to him. Now I’m totally dedicated to go on this journey of living the lifestyle of a vegetarian. Ready to discipline my stomach. Ready to exercise my muscles. Ready to take back my health. Ready even more to spread the word of God. For even more than before I now will have even more strength and will power to do so. Today was a great day spent with my friend and her new born Angel and she made me my first Jamaican vegetarian dish (dumpling with potato and steamed spinach and cabbage with broccoli and carrot) Oh so delicious! Plus I got a chance to renew my passion in photography by doing a photo shoot with her lovely daughter. All glory be to God.