I can count the few great relationships I have and sometimes I wonder if that’s good or bad. Whether good or bad I believe at some point we must be completely truthful to ourselves. This is my truth. Whenever I’m for you I give 150%. If you need and I have, your good. This is also why I limit the amount of “friends”, I allow in my life. I don’t want to spread myself too thin. After all I’m married to my very best friend and that’s my #1 priority when it comes to relationships. The problem I notice when I have really close girlfriends is that they become jealous of other relationships and I don’t know how to rationalize all that emotion and so I back out. One of my longest relationship with my ex-best friend, ended because I felt that we not only grew apart, but she no longer was the person I knew and I wasn’t the friend she needed at the time. She wanted someone to tell her the lifestyle she lived was ok. That it was excusable and I can’t lie or pretend to the ones I love and so it began to quickly fizzle. She wasn’t capable of balancing her relationship with me while dating. She would only draw close to me when she was heartbroken and after awhile that just didn’t work for me. I love her dearly and she’ll always have a place in my heart, but I felt like I needed to let her go for her to really find herself. Needless to say if she ever calls, I’ll be right here. Another amazing friend of mine, which was kinda awkward when our friendship ended. For her I knew she loved me because she was there for tremendously when my now husband and I were dating and separated. She was my rock. However when we got back together her relationship with her boyfriend started to feel like a competition with what I was trying to build with mine. It became obvious that they were competing instead of us learning from each other. This definitely led me to start having the natural relationships I was quickly forming. All of which included folks at least 10yrs older than I am. Which are so normal and natural that age doesn’t play a role or becomes an issue. I do know having a relationship with Christ plays an important role in the key relationships I now have. With Christ in them theirs no limit. Because of their relationship with him, it allows me to grow even more and realize my bad qualities as a friend. These are obviously my sides of the story and I’m well aware that theirs might be different . I forgave. Now that I’m writing this I don’t think I’ve ever expressed these feelings completely to them and maybe that needs to be apart of my healing process to grow more has a better person. This letter all started because of a recent fall out with my sister, who because I’ve always been truthful and extremely vocal in voicing my feelings. Didn’t realize how much I was hurting her, even if I didn’t like the decisions she was making. Even if I felt she changed completely and wasn’t capable of balancing our friendship. I hurt her because sometimes, this I’m learning, as a friend sometimes you just need to listen, be a shoulder and more importantly sometimes you have to step AWAY. Give that person room to adjust. We aren’t going to have all the answers as friends. Even if I don’t understand her decision and I might never. But I need to step away, let go and allow the same God we both serve to work and repair. To restore. Now the hardest revelation is this. Restoring relationships may mean that they will never be the SAME! They might get better or even fade. But we aren’t God and should never judge, just love like Christ did. More importantly we need to PRAY. Pray for each other and the things you don’t like. Not to work in your favor, but that God will do what’s best. So has I embark on a journey to restore and let go, or continue to build these relationships. I will now focus on the most important one…my marriage and Praise God for his complete coverage of it.
Letting go and allowing Christ in every area of my life, ultimately all our relationships should bring him glory!😊😊😊😊😊👂👂👂👍👍👍👍✌✌✌✌☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝☝💜💜💜💜💜
Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is .- James 5:16
So today I concluded that I’ve had way too much pregnancies and not enough fulfilled births of my dreams, visions and ideas. I’ve sadly went through way more abortions. I simply blamed this all on my ex-friend, “Procrastination”. He lied to me with dreams of just taking my time and letting my life just flow! That everything would be o.k, just sit back and wait. His close friend doubt always tagged along and made every word he said more true for me. They made my life a bit easier, less worrying and less time to take heed to my priorities. I don’t believe in having abortion with a real child, with life. Yet my life was constantly in the clinic. No care in the world. I’ve learnt this, if I choose not to birth the purposes God has given me. I will be sure to see someone else living out the blessings that was intended for me and the ones I care about! So far beyond myself, I decided for those who believe in me to let our friendship go. To move forward with a brand new attitude and brand new friends, Faith, Hope and Victory! Procrastination hasn’t taken this news so well and with his ingenious plan he came up with this, crashing my computer. Due to all the time spent with him, I haven’t backed up all my latest photos to my hard drive. So bye bye awesome shots! I felt crushed at first. My pictures are all like my kids, my heart shattered. But joy cometh through the grace of God and my husbands comforting words. So good try ex-friend, but this ride is over. I shall create even more beautiful memories and capture the essence of Christ better than I have before. He is that Great! I am ready Lord to have has many births as you have sown your seeds in me. Pregnant with all your wondrous purpose and can’t wait to see your glorious delivery of the manifestation of your truth being seen in my life. Thank you Jesus in advance.
This is by far the best cruise I’ve been on hands down. I planned this romantic cruise for my hubby’s birthday and he loved every minute of it. Everything was perfect! From the time we arrived on the boat to be seated, till the time we left with a complimentary cookie to go, outstanding customer service. For me personally New York has the worst customer service ever. People treat you has if you are doing them a favor by purchasing or receiving service from them. However this gave me a totally different outlook and gave me hope and a sense of relief knowing GOOD CUSTOMER service still exist.
Lets start with the ambiance on the boat. One word BREATH-TAKING.
The staff was very courteous and super friendly. Not to mention the bonus of them wishing my husband happy birthday every chance they got. They had a live Jazz entertainment. The Manager greeted every single table and introduce himself. To top it off he also came at the end to see if we enjoyed everything. Which we did!
THE FOOD….Seafood ManicottiGratinee: Manicotti filled with Ricotta Cheese and topped with Bay Scallops, Rock Shrimp, PE Mussels and traditional Alfredo………..Truly a taste of heaven…
So I met someone recently and the connection is so amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!….I mean any and everything I would want in a partner. He’s a gentleman, has the utmost respect for me and treats me nothing less than a Queen. I had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn’t dreaming, Lol :-) But it was in that moment I had to catch myself and realize that I can live in the moment, and learn somethings about myself and about what it is I expect from my next relationship. This has been a great friendship and I strongly believe that God placed him in my life at the right moment and even if it doesn’t turn out to be anything more than that. I can truly say it wouldn’t really make a difference because, in him I see God’s way of helping me to see that the possibilities of finding someone who is going to love me unconditional and love my daughter just the same, is out there. I wouldn’t doubt it for a second, after experiencing this friendship. Choosing to be friends first allows us to feel no pressure to impress each other and we can be just as goofy and childish as we want to be at times or just seeing how much the person really sparks your interest. Finding a man these days who would rather call you and talk on the phone for hours rather than text you is very hard and I like that about him. He actually pays attention to what I’m saying. Instead of sitting on the couch watching sports, we take long walks on the beach. God is so amazing and he has been so active in my life these past two years . I have experience so much growth through putting him first and always in my life. Just making sure I consult him first before making any decisions. It’s truly worth it to completely trust the Lord and just let him carry you. I want to end with this that what ever you may be going through or have gone through, just take something positive from the situation and just allow yourself to experience growth because the greater the suffering the greater the blessing.