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Relationships!!! πŸ˜ŠπŸ˜ŠπŸ˜…πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜’πŸ˜’πŸ˜’πŸ˜πŸ˜ πŸ˜£πŸ˜’

Relationships!
I can count the few great relationships I have and sometimes I wonder if that’s good or bad. Whether good or bad I believe at some point we must be completely truthful to ourselves. This is my truth. Whenever I’m for you I give 150%. If you need and I have, your good. This is also why I limit the amount of “friends”, I allow in my life. I don’t want to spread myself too thin. After all I’m married to my very best friend and that’s my #1 priority when it comes to relationships. The problem I notice when I have really close girlfriends is that they become jealous of other relationships and I don’t know how to rationalize all that emotion and so I back out. One of my longest relationship with my ex-best friend, ended because I felt that we not only grew apart, but she no longer was the person I knew and I wasn’t the friend she needed at the time. She wanted someone to tell her the lifestyle she lived was ok. That it was excusable and I can’t lie or pretend to the ones I love and so it began to quickly fizzle. She wasn’t capable of balancing her relationship with me while dating. She would only draw close to me when she was heartbroken and after awhile that just didn’t work for me. I love her dearly and she’ll always have a place in my heart, but I felt like I needed to let her go for her to really find herself. Needless to say if she ever calls, I’ll be right here. Another amazing friend of mine, which was kinda awkward when our friendship ended. For her I knew she loved me because she was there for tremendously when my now husband and I were dating and separated. She was my rock. However when we got back together her relationship with her boyfriend started to feel like a competition with what I was trying to build with mine. It became obvious that they were competing instead of us learning from each other. This definitely led me to start having the natural relationships I was quickly forming. All of which included folks at least 10yrs older than I am. Which are so normal and natural that age doesn’t play a role or becomes an issue. I do know having a relationship with Christ plays an important role in the key relationships I now have. With Christ in them theirs no limit. Because of their relationship with him, it allows me to grow even more and realize my bad qualities as a friend. These are obviously my sides of the story and I’m well aware that theirs might be different . I forgave. Now that I’m writing this I don’t think I’ve ever expressed these feelings completely to them and maybe that needs to be apart of my healing process to grow more has a better person. This letter all started because of a recent fall out with my sister, who because I’ve always been truthful and extremely vocal in voicing my feelings. Didn’t realize how much I was hurting her, even if I didn’t like the decisions she was making. Even if I felt she changed completely and wasn’t capable of balancing our friendship. I hurt her because sometimes, this I’m learning, as a friend sometimes you just need to listen, be a shoulder and more importantly sometimes you have to step AWAY. Give that person room to adjust. We aren’t going to have all the answers as friends. Even if I don’t understand her decision and I might never. But I need to step away, let go and allow the same God we both serve to work and repair. To restore. Now the hardest revelation is this. Restoring relationships may mean that they will never be the SAME! They might get better or even fade. But we aren’t God and should never judge, just love like Christ did. More importantly we need to PRAY. Pray for each other and the things you don’t like. Not to work in your favor, but that God will do what’s best. So has I embark on a journey to restore and let go, or continue to build these relationships. I will now focus on the most important one…my marriage and Praise God for his complete coverage of it.
Letting go and allowing Christ in every area of my life, ultimately all our relationships should bring him glory!πŸ˜ŠπŸ˜ŠπŸ˜ŠπŸ˜ŠπŸ˜ŠπŸ‘‚πŸ‘‚πŸ‘‚πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘βœŒβœŒβœŒβœŒβ˜β˜β˜β˜β˜β˜β˜β˜β˜β˜β˜β˜πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ
Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is .- James 5:16

SIGNED: BUTTERFLY

For 26yrs God has kept me, mold me and held me..Glory be to God😊😍

This weekend I’ve been celebrating my bday in Miami and I had a blast. Private helicopter tour, swimming with dolphins, holding baby gators and eating great vegetarian food. All things I had a fear of doing, yet through Christ my biggest lesson this year is actually believing that I can do absolutely all things through Christ who gives me strength and so that exactly how I’ve overcome all these fears I had. Plus Christ doesn’t embed in us a spirit of fear, but that of a sound mind. Ended last night at Joel Osteen Night of Hope and left feeling so inspired. I worship all the way home and began my 26th bday in worship and more closer to him than ever. I truly am incredibly grateful for God taking my story and making it bring glory to his name. For taking my shame and making it victorious. My mere birth was a miracle. I’ve learnt to forgive those who’ve hurt me along the way and forgive myself for hurting others. I’ve let go of the past and I’m holding on tight to the future. The joy of the Lord is my strength. Lord you’ve held my hands, carried me when I became too weak and made me your child from day one. I dedicate my entire life to you and it’s completely change me. I’m a different woman now because of your grace. You’ve took the worst of me and gave the best to me and with all I am, I’ll live to worship you. I praise you in advance for an abundant life to serve and honor you. Thanks for another incredible year of service to you. Thanks for blessing me with an incredible husband whose taken up his cross and his role has a husband and whose exceeded my expectations of what marriage would be when lived through you. All glory be to God.
Signed Butterfly

I’m not just married, I’m HAPPILY married to my best friend !

Seems to be so much negative views, ideas and perspectives on what marriage is and how it should be. I love being married and I’m so happy that not only did God create this sacred covenant where he’s the head of, but he allow me to see other beautiful couples who have had successfully LOVE Only because they placed him first. I’m so grateful that God gave me a piece of his love here on earth. I love learning new ways to love my man each day.πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜πŸ˜šπŸ˜šπŸ™ŠπŸ’“πŸ’“πŸ’“πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’πŸ’πŸ’πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’›πŸ’›πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ‘°πŸ‘°πŸ‘°πŸ‘°πŸ‘«πŸ‘«πŸ‘«πŸ’ƒπŸ’ƒπŸ’ƒ

Signed Butterfly

Be still and know that I am God…peace in the midst of a storm

This made my heart smile…though this cat’s surrounding seems evidently chaotic and filthy…he sleeps peaceful with grace among the ruins of life…Don’t let your situation define who you are or better yet how you behave. God is always in control. God is truly good.

Signed Butterfly

This Vegetarian Journey Begins…

Today was the last day of my cleanse. Praise God! It went O.k to say the least. My body didn’t really take to the cleanse and I felt weak most of the time with a slight headache. Even with me taking every step precisely as recommended. Didn’t work for me, yet the best part of this cleanse was for me the five day fast from solid food intake. That took a lot of discipline and self control. But I made it with the help of God. This was more of a spiritual fast and I kept grounded in the word more than ever. Through it all God was good, is good and all glory be to him. Now I’m totally dedicated to go on this journey of living the lifestyle of a vegetarian. Ready to discipline my stomach. Ready to exercise my muscles. Ready to take back my health. Ready even more to spread the word of God. For even more than before I now will have even more strength and will power to do so. Today was a great day spent with my friend and her new born Angel and she made me my first Jamaican vegetarian dish (dumpling with potato and steamed spinach and cabbage with broccoli and carrot) Oh so delicious! Plus I got a chance to renew my passion in photography by doing a photo shoot with her lovely daughter. All glory be to God.

Signed Butterfly:

Taking back my health!

Words of confession lead to possession.

I wouldn’t say I’m overweight, but certainly not at my best health-wise. I dislike exercising. I love love eating, and this is where the problem began. I’ve always been able to eat every and anything and not gain a pound. But that was when I was younger and my metabolism was much faster. But years have changed all that.

In order for me to give God my complete best, I need to be in the best shape of my life at all times. I need to consume better food and treat my body like the temple that it is. After all the Holy Spirit does reside there. Cleanliness is next to Godliness, and although I certainly pride myself on being a neat freak and an overall clean person. I CANT IMAGINE WHAT MUST BE LIVING INSIDE ME, from all the garbage I’ve been disposing in my body. I have to stop making excuses and start controlling my horrible eating habits in order to bring glory to God in the way He has purposed me to do so. After all he wants me to have life and to have it more abundantly.

What would be the purpose of claiming my inheritance if I won’t be alive long enough to live it through. Now yes, don’t get me wrong tomorrow is not promised to no-one. But I sure want to be ready for tomorrow when it comes!Β  I’m not naive to think I will live the years Methuselah lived, but I would like to live a life feeling healthy. It is not how long you live, but how you feel while you’re living. My mentor has been a great influence in this revelation for me and she shared with me an amazing book to help me through. Titled, ” Satan, I’m taking back my Health!-by Dr. Jawanza Kunjufu” . A very powerful and informative tool so far in my journey. I was fearfully and wonderfully made and I can definitely see why the devil wouldn’t like that at all.

We receive new blood every 90 days, yet God’s everlasting grace is at our fingertips everyday. How amazing is His might and wonders! Being a vegetarian, vegan etc doesn’t make us healthier than thou and since God gave us all a free will to eat and do as we please. I believe that at the end of the day he really only wants us to, ” eat that which is good”, Isaiah 55:2. Use the Holy Spirit to help us to discern what is really best for us. What route is going to get us the best and healthiest results possible for each of our different unique body structures. Also lets not confuse being healthy as being thin or skinny.

There’s so many questions to ask yourself at the beginning of any new journey. But referencing back to the book, one particular question the author ask was, ” when people look at your body, do they see God” . My mentor advised me to take it deeper and ask myself when I look at my body without clothing do I see God? The author reminds us that our body is a temple. We were bought with a price. Jesus paid the ultimate sacrifice for us. The least we could do is when people see us they see God. How profound is that!

Growing up and remember going days without food. To now having the luxury of having way too much food, as been my way of allowing the devil to lie to me and whisper sweet nothings in my ear. “Oh go ahead and eat all you can, by the way don’t let it go to waste”,Β ” Oh darling just one more bite”, “You can fill your plate with twice the portion, why not you can afford it” . All those thoughts were deceptive lies that kept me bondage and a slave to my stomach. Now I’m aware that Hey that happened to me and now I’m a better person for it. I’m more grateful for small things and less wasteful with things I don’t really need.

My addiction with overeating food has ended! Balance is the key to life and I will start with this. Through this journey of self discovery for my health I’ll be seeking the Holy Spirit more than ever, Scriptures and prayer. I’m sure gonna need it all. My addiction was overeating food. Choose LIFE over your addiction of caffeine, alcohol, nicotine, cocaine, sex, lies, etc . Be blessed.

Signed ButterflyΒ 

WHAT’S MORE IMPORTANT: VALENTINE’S DAY OR BLACK HISTORY MONTH?

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OK SO I’M TOTALLY CONFUSED. SO THE MEDIA HAS DEFINITELY BEEN UP-SELLING VALENTINE’S DAY AND ALL ITS GLORY. I RARELY HEAR ANY MENTIONS OF WHAT OUR GREATS HAVE DONE TO CHANGE OUR CULTURE AND THE AFFECTS IT HAS HAD ON US THEREAFTER .

My husband and I do NOT celebrate ” VALENTINE’S DAY”. Don’t get me wrong, I did fall for the romantic ideas and gestures at a younger age. But life does teach you your greatest lessons. I remember our first valentine together, of course I was expecting a gift or some big grand gesture. Then my hubby says, “babe if I’mΒ  not showing you my love everyday, then something is wrong”. That’s when I got it, and Valentine’s day became irrelevant for me. There’s not a day that goes by that he doesn’t tell me or shows me how much he loves me. That’s a work in progress, that requires all 365 days of each year to accomplish. Not just one mere day. Marriage is simply learning to love and be with someone for the rest of your life. It takes work, time and effort….not a mere day.

Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her- Ephesians 5:25

The love of God is infinite, so why should man limit when to express our love to each other. Show me a bouquet of rose/flowers that lasts an entire year without watering it and I’ll be a believer again. Love requires nurturing and care.

Let’s focus on the Greats that gave every bit of love they had to make a change in our life, through their entire lives:

Bob Marley–

SIGNED BY BUTTERFLY:

Broke up with Procrastination and boy was he upset!

So today I concluded that I’ve had way too much pregnancies and not enough fulfilled births of my dreams, visions and ideas. I’ve sadly went through way more abortions. I simply blamed this all on my ex-friend, “Procrastination”. He lied to me with dreams of just taking my time and letting my life just flow! That everything would be o.k, just sit back and wait. His close friend doubt always tagged along and made every word he said more true for me. They made my life a bit easier, less worrying and less time to take heed to my priorities. I don’t believe in having abortion with a real child, with life. Yet my life was constantly in the clinic. No care in the world. I’ve learnt this, if I choose not to birth the purposes God has given me. I will be sure to see someone else living out the blessings that was intended for me and the ones I care about! So far beyond myself, I decided for those who believe in me to let our friendship go. To move forward with a brand new attitude and brand new friends, Faith, Hope and Victory! Procrastination hasn’t taken this news so well and with his ingenious plan he came up with this, crashing my computer. Due to all the time spent with him, I haven’t backed up all my latest photos to my hard drive. So bye bye awesome shots! I felt crushed at first. My pictures are all like my kids, my heart shattered. But joy cometh through the grace of God and my husbands comforting words. So good try ex-friend, but this ride is over. I shall create even more beautiful memories and capture the essence of Christ better than I have before. He is that Great! I am ready Lord to have has many births as you have sown your seeds in me. Pregnant with all your wondrous purpose and can’t wait to see your glorious delivery of the manifestation of your truth being seen in my life. Thank you Jesus in advance.

SIGNED BUTTERFLYΒ Β