Having been in a relationship for the past 7 years I thought I had found my soul mate! I thought I knew exactly what I wanted in a partner and I knew I had found it in him. Six months ago that relationship came to an end, and at first it felt as if I had been sitting on a chair and someone pull it from under my bottom without warning. I felt pain, anger, betrayal, confusion and the list could go on. I could have chosen to feel sorry for myself and wallow in my own pain and suffering. Instead with the help of my loving sister’s advise I got up wiped away the tears and faced the music. That music was that God had a different plan for my life and what I had taken from that relationship where blessings, strength, love and lessons that have prepared me for whats to come. Sure there were days when I thought I had been in a relationship so long, that I have no idea how to start dating again. It was then I realized that all along I stayed in my previous relationship only because the situation fit the frame of the picture I was painting for my life and all the years that God tried to pull me away from it I kept fighting to stay in it! See we get so comfortable from time to time in situations that’s clearly not good for us and though God tries to show us the way he wants us to go, we fight. One thing I didn’t want to walk away from my situation being an angry woman. So I took some time out with my Lord one day and just prayed about it, that I would use it as a tool to teach me more about myself and what it is that God wants for me. I asked for patience to wait on God to place the right man in my life and that I would be able to know the difference between when I’m doing ME or what God wants for me.
Recently I’ve really come to realize and understand that we are not defined by our circumstances. Our joy resides in Christ (The joy of the Lord is my strength -Nehemiah 8:10) and him alone. With him I can find joy and peace in any situation, in any storm. Crisis reveals our true character. The way we deal with our crisis definitely determines who we are. Sometimes we tend to give the “devil” WAYYYY too much credit! Don’t get me wrong, he is real and he does exist. He will try and has been trying my faith. But my faith is bigger than him. My God is bigger than him. I am bigger than him. I believe God takes us through things to lead us to a better place. I’ve seen it continuously in my life and in the people I love lives. (God doesn’t give us more than we can handle- 1 Corinthians 10:13)
Philippians 4:13 “I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
The devil as no control over what happens in my life, the ultimately decision maker and Author of my life is Christ my Savior! Period ….
I witnessed a love one go through a car accident and her entire reaction to the person at fault and the entire experience was positive all the way. Praising God every chance she got. Thanking him with every breath she was able to take. I was in awe, not because I’ve never seen this, but because in that moment I was reminded of his Grace and Mercy that has brought us a mighty long way. His hands wrapped around us, his love pouring through our souls. God is awesome! (Genesis 19:19 Behold now, thy servant hath found grace in thy sight, and thou hast magnified thy mercy, which thou hast shewed unto me in saving my life; and I cannot escape to the mountain, lest some evil take me, and I die:)
In concluding I will say this, God is still the author of my life- I trust him and I love him. I gave myself away so he could use me the day I got saved. I took up the cross and I’m walking with him, side by side. If he endured pain and suffering from mankind here on earth. Why would I be excluded? It’s a big misconception that being a Believer requires our lives to be perfect. That’s a myth! Move on and carry on with your cross, no matter how heavy it gets. He will help you.
Be blessed and loved through Christ my Lord. STAY ON THE RIGHT PATH, EVEN WHEN IT GETS ROCKY.